The After
There will be things that will happen in your life that will split your life in two. A before and an after. I'm now living in the after.
Before, life was simple. Comfortable. Clean. After the departure, things got crazy and uncertain. After taking the leap, fear crept in. It can get so bad that it makes your mind race. Fear is the enemy of faith. Your heart believes something so strongly, so passionately and then your mind allows the fear to decide for you. Fight against the fear. It's not easy, but it's a fight you must win if freedom is what you desire. Fear is temporary. It passes over time. Your future is in your faith. Be strong enough to see past the unknown and keep going. The plan you created for yourself is so minuscule compared to the one the universe has waiting for you. Fear will make you turn around. It'll make you beg to be back in bondage.
I let my fear convince me that this was the end for me. That it was the end for us. And it was. It was the end of allowing the weight of the world overcome me. Overcome us. I am more powerful, more creative, more wonderful than what I can imagine for myself. We are more magnificent, more resilient, more beautiful than anything we can imagine for ourselves. It's just time for us to step into our destiny. It's time for me to step into my destiny.
The truth is, going back will kill you. It'll eat away at your spirit. I'm discovering more as time presses forward that although it looked like I made a mistake jumping, I really just jumped into my destiny. Where it leads, only the universe knows. I'm finally finding my joy in the ride.
My after is still uncertain. It's still being fleshed out. But that's the joy. The joy is waking up everyday not knowing what the universe is going to unveil. I choose to experience life more freely because otherwise, I'll drift back into to my before. That depressed place. The dark place. The light is in the after. The after is place where I get to plant my seeds. I get to prepare myself for the next storm. Storms come and go. They can be rough, but like our fears, they pass away with time.
There's a storm out on the ocean, and its moving this way. When you see a storm coming, you should remember that the rain is also coming. What better time to plant a seed then when you know it's about to rain. Right now is the time we must sow seeds into the earth and till the soil and believe that in due time, once we've uprooted enough weeds, our harvest will be plentiful. You must know however, it is not the universes job to plant the seeds. It's yours. Storms in our lives come and go so frequently and most times we fall into depression when they come. We sink into darkness. We sink back into our before. However, that is just your signal to start planting the seeds.
Be like the ant. Instead of giving up and allowing chaos to take over, when an ants' path is disturbed, it immediately starts creating another path and keeps going. For Black people, Trump getting elected was our signal that a storm is on the way. What seeds are we sowing to get ready for the storm? How are we getting ourselves ready for what's to come? Are we sitting by idly waiting? Will we plant and prepare to reap a harvest bigger than anything we could have ever imagined? What does that seed look like? What actions must we take to uproot our weeds? This storm that's coming will be one of the harshest we've ever experienced, but with the right amount of seeds planted, in due time we will be alright! Plant your seed before it's too late. Prepare to be ready for your after? Dance in your after. Sing in your after. Create the life you want in your after. Just don't look back at your before. Let it wash away with the rain from the storm.